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So everything in my life has seemed to be an extreme. Something happens and it is the best possible outcome or the worst. For example, a month ago my stomach feels upset and before I know it I am under the knife. I apply for RA and make it through everything to be hired. I just feel like I could really stand for some neutrality. If life were to kinda just happen for a week or two and not really make a blip on the radar I think I could refresh and prepare for the shit storm. For one of the first times in my life I am extremely excited for summer. I have made several friends up here and everything, but I still feel closer to anyone else from memphis. Sometimes I wonder if the relationships I have made with people in memphis are unique and would nor could happen with anyone else. Have we simply clicked on a deeper level where we can do anything and know the other will not give a shit how ridiculous it is. I miss being able to run up to someone and jump into their arms, not having to care about perceptions. Even stone cold Takari accepts my hugs with only a roll of his eyes. Everyone always says that your deepest friendships are made in college, but I am struggling to find many that would be able to open with me like I desire to do with them. While this is all true, I still feel remotely close to people here. I have lived with them for a year and all. Sometimes I wish everyone I knew went to school together and I had twenty roommates who all slept on top of each other, drank themselves to sleep, and woke up with the same smile inside for the day to come.