Parties

So I have been to a party both last weekend and this weekend. Last weekend I had a bit to drink -cough, cough- and this week I just left. I haven't completely decided my attitude toward them. My initial reaction is why go to a "party" if you don't plan on using things. By for some reason some of my friends find enjoyment out of it. So today I just wasn't feeling very well so I turned to the cigarettes again. I really feel bad about it but they are the most socially acceptable / legal form of a pick me up that I have access to here. I smoked more than I ever had at the same time, 5, tonight. I was totally buzzing off of it. I am worried that I might be getting addicted, but I really can't afford that right now. Other than that I have been reading the Maximum Ride series and any of you reading who have free time should definitely get them. They are quite enjoyable. Oh something that I do to lighten my day is to analyze everytime someone says fucking as an adjective. Think of what they say as actually fucking instead of simple vulgarity. So for example if some one says fucking door, you know they are locking and unlocking that door all night long. Yeah well it is kinda late so imma go to bed. ttyl love ya